that i look at you and just can't belive it.
you are getting so big, so smart, so independant, so fast, so busy, so interested in the world around you, so funny, so..your own little person. and it all happened over night i tell ya. lynley, where did my 5 lb baby go? it's like i woke up one day to get you out of bed and there you were, big. literally jumping up and down in your crib!
Dad doesn't get this, but i cry some nights after i put you to bed. it's my least favorite time of the day..becuase i don't see you for 12+ hours. and i kknow that during those 12 hours...my babies getting bigger and bigger.
tonight i just wanted to hold you until you fell asleep. we rocked in the green chair with your baba while i sang to you for awhile...until you wanted to be in your bed so you could sleep. i'm not saying it hurt my feelings haha but i'm just not ready.
you go to nursery now you see, this is a big step for me. usually church is 3 hours of keeping a very close eye on you. now...you go into the room accross the hall and play with other kids, while other ladies watch you and give you snack. we haven't done a whole lot of stranger baby sitters...so this is just alot for me.
you are so smart. i'm not just saying that because i'm your mom. you really are! ask anyone. lynley, you have the best little spirit around this house. when me and dad are fighting or not happy, you walk in the room and demand that we be a happy family. you make us want to be better people. to be successful. to make it through anything this world has to throw at us.
i love you lyn. i feel like i've loved you and have been waiting for you my whole life. us three, we're in this together, no matter what. and i mean that with everything in me. ok?
Even when you get biggger and are a teenager even, you'll always be my baby.
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